i think i am depressed. and i dont know what to do about it. i try to hide it from everyone, i am embarrassed to tell anyone. i dont think my husband would even believe me. and with my parents it would be matter of toughen up. but i think holding it in has made me break this weekend. i cant even enjoy time to myself. ive been home depressed, frustrated, and exhausted wasting away my weekend.

i hate being alone. i dont want to be alone.

i hate what i am, who ive become.

and at this point in my life i cant change it because there are too many thing depending on me to keep going the direction i am going. and it is making me unhappy.