Conflicting schedules

Lonely. Every weekend is spent cleaning and going to church. Weekdays I'm at work all day and don't usually get home till 6:30-7pm. Hubby works night shifts in the ER and we hardly see each other anymore. He gets home so drained that when he has a few days off he will spend the majority of the time sleeping. It's so frustrating not to be able to have a conversation with him. When we do it's things he previously told me and has no recollection of telling them to me, or has any idea what I've been telling him.

I'm just really fucking tired of myself and miss him.
Tired of being in my head and analyzing everything.
Tired of not being able to have dinner with my husband.

At least work is well and we are lucky enough to each have jobs. And the hubby has a second job, that he starts in late October...

I need to be grateful for what we have.
But it's hard when I don't get to enjoy spending time with the only person I have.

so ready for the end of the school year.  less than 30 days...
so frustrated with the state testing that has derailed instruction time and has made these kids shut down.  they don't want to do anything anymore.  argh.  so ready for todays field testing to be over so that we can go back to regular classes.

so frustrated with these kids... ::tear::