i want pretty hair

i miss my long hair. i cut it all off in march and it feels like nothing but my bangs has grown since then. it is very frustrating. my hair usually has a tendency to grow quickly, and now its not. i feel old...

all mixed up...

i hate myself so much lately... it is ridiculous. i do not understand what is wrong with me. every little thing is bothering me and makes me want to go over the edge. i just want to be happy again. but i cant. i think the pms is making this week worse compared to the rest of this summer. but thank god i am having a regular period. it needs to be september so that i can be seen by my gyno and get everything checked. make sure everything is in working order.

i just wanna fall asleep and not wake up.
i havent felt like this in years.
im not an angsty teenager anymore.
why am i feeling like this again.
fuck it all to hell.

i need real people in my life and i dont know where to find them other than houston 5 hours away. i wish i had more friends around me. butttt mehhh... i need to get out more. but im an old lady and dont like to go out too late...

fail!